Wednesday, June 29, 2011

For the Love of Kripke.

This post contains massive spoilers for the finale of Supernatural season 6. You have been warned. 


Let me preface this post with a quick statement of my loyalties in Supernatural. I am a Dean girl, through and through. I am also a big fan of Castiel. I have been for a really long time. Like, season 4, long time. He is my second favorite character and just the thought that he was only supposed to be around for six episodes is amazingly awesome. I feel like it's a testament to both the writer's who created him and continued to create him over the last three seasons, and to Misha Collins for being such a fantastic actor. 

I also have a fandom hard on for Castiel/Dean. And it's not just because I truly enjoy slash and fanfiction in all it's glory. It is because, at the very least, I truly believe that Castiel is in love with Dean. I think Misha plays it that way and I think it is a main aspect of who Castiel's character is. That not only is he dealing with the turmoil of being a rebel angel, trying to find God, and fighting against his brothers because he doesn't believe in the apocalypse. He is also dealing with all of that plus being in love with a human. His drive to protect Dean and the protect those whom Dean deems the most important in the world, is that of complete and utter love. That fact is indisputable. Now, it is up to whomever is watching to decide if it is because he loves him like a brother, or if it is because he's in love with him. I choose the latter because I feel like we both already have a strong, do-anything-for-you, brother relationship and because of how Misha plays it. 

So, that being said. Let's move on to the finale episodes.  

I feel like this season has focused a lot on Sam and Castiel. I feel like their two stories, that intertwine in such a fantastic way, are those which define the season as a whole and define how things are going to move forward in season 7. Dean is an important, makeshift, voice of reason but that does not mean he is always correct. This is where being a Dean girl and Castiel fan comes into conflict for me. This season more than any other. 

One of my favorite things about Supernatural is the references to culture. The bit about H.P. Lovecraft was ingenious and I love that it both happened and that even before they showed the name, my brain told me it was Lovecraft. I feel like I wouldn't have thought that, however, if I hadn't been trained by SPN for the past five years. 

Moving forward past the teaser. While I adore Ben, and wish he'd had more character growth and had been a main character, I could do without Lisa. I am not a Lisa hater, like a lot of people. I just intensely dislike her. I feel like that was the point, though. No matter how important the writers make a character to Dean or to Sam, if they're a female character then they are meant to be hated. Which is part of that inherent sexism in the show that I was talking about. The way that female characters are treated, talked about, spoken to, or written as, is sexist beyond belief. And that's just within the show. I don't even want to talk about the fandom, which consists mostly of females (Which is what makes it so depressing.) That however is what I have to say about any and all parts of the finale episodes with Lisa. I'm not a big fan, but at least I understand why. 

Crowley, on the other hand, is one of my favorite pseudo-villains. If not my favorite. Not only did I completely love, catch, and laugh about how they so bluntly stole a character (almost exactly) from Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett's epicly amazing novel Good Omens. I also fell in love with Mark Sheppard as an actor. 

Okay. So, we've got purgatory. We have the newly appointed King of Hell, Crowley, and a fallen angel, Castiel, working together trying find the spell to open purgatory. Castiel just wants to have enough power to stop his brother Raphael from restarting the apocalypse, which we've already covered Castiel does not want. Crowley, on the other hand, just wants more power. Therefore, we've got the would-be good guy who's just doing this to save the world and the would-be villain who's just doing this because he can and wants to. This will be good.

I still stand by Castiel. I really do. Even after the finale episodes. I feel like the results were both good and amazingly, horribly awful, but I also feel like his intention was very human. In fact the entire situation was extremely human. What he did, why he did it, the results of what he did. He made a mistake. He did some pretty awful stuff, but so has Sam and so has Dean. Sam is on the same level, I feel, as Castiel when it comes to the bad stuff. From just the whole soulless year alone. Dean is very stuck in his ways and when things don't agree with those ways, he usually fights against it. Even if he wrong. Like the vampire episode in season 2 with the good vampires. Prime example of Dean's pigheadedness.

The biggest questions going into season 7 are going to be: What will happen to Sam? His protective wall has been broken by Castiel and he both remembers hell and is remembering the soulless year. Will he completely break apart, or will be soldier through like Dean did in season 4? Will Dean, Sam, and Bobby bow down to Castiel, or will they run for their lives for the whole season? And to couple that question, Will Castiel really destroy them if they don't bow down and love him? There's also my personal question of if Chuck, who I believe to actually be God, will come back. If he does come back, will he be powerful enough to stop Castiel? We know that Castiel will both drop as a main character and will be the "villain" of  season 7. So all these questions, and then some, will come up until September. 

That being said. I think Sam is strong enough to deal with his wall breaking. I think they will run for their lives and I think Castiel might kidnap one of them in exchange for the bowing down. I can only hope Chuck will come back because I adore him and want him to return Castiel to his former lovely state. I certainly do not hope that season 7 is the last, but I hope that if it is, things are okay. They don't have to be perfect at the end. This is  the Winchester brothers we're talking about. I just hope that everything is okay in the end. If it's not, then it's really not the end.

-Wednesday

Monday, June 20, 2011

A Post About Relationships. Sort Of.

It's weird to be attracted to someone when you know they might actually like you back. Like, that's a totally new and different experience for me. I don't really know if it makes me more or less awkward around them. Let's just say more, though, because that seems more like me. The only guy I actually count as a boyfriend was Andy, and let's just say it took me a three months before I could actually, and I'm not lying about this, even talk to the boy. Then three months of just being friends. Then four months of going on off and on dates through the summer. Finally he told me that he liked me at a friends birthday party and we dated for eight months. So, my track record for guys is slim at best, although I love Andy to pieces.

My general recent type for unattainable guys? (I say guys because the majority of the girls I'm attracted to are unattainable simply because they are heterosexual.) They usually have one, or more, of the following traits:

  • At least 5 years older then I
  • Married
  • Taken
  • Just got out of a relationship
  • Has a kid
  • Lives way to far away
  • We are just friends
  • Has no idea who I am (in all actuality)

And I'm not just talking about celebrity crushes, which is pretty sad. Also, I haven't really been crushing, amazingly enough, on too many homosexual boys. So, go me. 

Anyway. Back to that guys actually, maybe, liking me thing. Surprisingly, or at least it is surprising to me (and probably my IRL friends who know me okay), I haven't really thought about the guy I've been crushing on mad for the past three months. Like, barely at all. It's a combination of not talking to him because we hung out so much during the last month of school and I figured we probably needed time where we just weren't in each others lives, and internet friends and work being my whole life right now. Like, the only reason I've even thought about him in the past week or so is because I've been thinking about school and my major, which he is in. I only mention this because it is kind of amazing, considering it's me.

I mention this whole topic, however, because I like (only tiny crushes, I swear!) three guys at work. They all fall under at least one, if not two or more, of the things I put on that list. Honestly, two of them are only because I have fun messing around and bad mouthing customers with them and, despite being shift leaders, they're both really chill. Which is slightly attractive to me, being able to be that cool with someone. That doesn't however, make them legit crushes or anything actually sustainable. The other one, I actually really like. Or could potentially like, I don't actually know him that well. What's funny is that he went to school with my sister. Like, they partied together in high school and she was really good friends with his younger brother. He came in today to see about his schedule, which is what made me think of this. We flirt a lot, when we actually work together, and I know I'm not just imagining things (like I'm known to do) because he found me on Facebook and gave me his phone number. 

The potential of someone actually, for once, liking me back when I like them is a little too much to handle, though. I can feel my relationship fail kicking into overdrive. Regardless of whether or not it would be a "relationship" because that fail system kicks in for any aspect of a relationship. Sometimes even for friendships.

PLUS. There's the guy I'm in Nerdfighterlust with. There's been some talk from Savannah and Rachel about why I'm calling it that, instead of Nerdfighterlike. Honestly, to me, Nerdfighterlike implies that both parties feel the same about each other. Nerdfighterlust, on the other hand, is more one-sided. The unrequited like of a Nerdfighter. That's totally what I'm in. So, that's what I'm calling it and you can suck it if you don't like it.

Anyway. I worked from 11 AM until 8 PM, because both people who were supposed to come in called off and we even had to call in my best friend, who also works with me (\o/), which was lame. Then, of course I work from 8 AM until 4 PM tomorrow and I really shouldn't be writing this. I should be sleeping. But the episode of Family Guy  that was on I had already seen eighteen thousand times and I was bored.

So, I hope this entry made some kind of sense. Next entry will be SPN related for Savannah, I swear. I need to rewatch the finale before I write it, though. Also, I need to finish Caprica and watch the four episode of Breaking Bad I haven't yet.

Until next time,
Wednesday. 

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

A post about nothing.

Savannah (TheFourOfClubs) made a blog post with a list of lists. I will do the same thing. I need to blog more about actual life. Not just fandom. So, here's some more fandom because real life is hard to write and speak about because it's actually real.


  1. Ten favorite movies
  2. Five favorite television shows
  3. Five favorite young adult authors
  4. Ten favorite novels
  5. Five favorite authors in general
  6. Ten favorite bands
  7. Comedic women 
  8. Ten men I find attractive who aren't ever singled out for their looks
  9. Things I've learned from sci-fi
  10. People I love
  11. People I either know love me or wish did
  12. People I've felt Nerdfighterlust towards
  13. Quotes I adore
  14. Twenty favorite vloggers
  15. Reasons I fail at relationships

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Doctor Who Mid-Series Finale.

Okay. I'm going to delete that last entry about Doctor Who. It was too long winded and got away from me. It wasn't very good, as well. I knew exactly what I need to say to explain why Eleven is my Doctor.

So. I just watched the mid-series finale. The only thing I have to say about the episode is that

Moffat is my king.

That is all.

The next entry will be about the finale of SPN because Savannah wanted me to talk about it. Besides, I need to work through the feelings I still haven't been able to handle. (Which means I've pushed away the feelings like a boss.)

Alright. Until next time.

-Wednesday